**original post 3/27**
Health, mine has been fine.. then boom.. reality hits. My heart wouldn't stop fluttering so my doctor told me to take double my beta blocker to help with the palpatations and so I did... and when I did... guess who passed out? Me. The doctor told me I HAD to go to the ER and when I got there I basically passed out and my blood pressure was 62/38.. wicked low, dangerously low to be frank with you. The started two IV's in me, which means two IV's too many and they pumped me full of fluids, vitamins and everything because my electrolytes and bloodwork came back a bit weird. Now the doctors are testing me for a seizure disorder. That makes me a bit scared but I need to do the testing they want me to do. I have an EEG scheduled for Tuesday and I am wearing a heart monitor 24/7 for an entire month. So sexy let me tell you. I have had great support and kindness shown by some people and I thank you all for your concern. I will keep you all updated.
Tomorrow Rick and I meet with Father Ralph to talk about possibly getting married at St. Augustines. Ahhh Insane. I have always wanted to get married there so I hope Rick can see how much I want this. I love that church and it will make me feel like my Memere will be there on that day, which means more that many people know. Random but our deposit for the reception and the dj is due tomorrow. Wow I really cant believe it. Shit is getting close and serious! I am super excited though. I can't wait to get the ball rolling. I need to meet up with the cake designer and our photographer.. and I think I am meeting with our photographer sometime next week to sign stuff. I have literally FANTASTIC vendors and am very happy. I hope Rick is happy too with everything I have done! I cant WAIT for him to see my gown either. I have been doing small craft projects here and there but we have lots done already. 2 of my 4 bridesmaids have purchased their gowns already, my mom has her dress and I think in my travels tomorrow I might stop at the tux shop to get some color ideas and whatnot. My man and his groomsmen need to look good! Alright and that is my update for now.. I feel like junk but am not tired yet. Oh well. I found this poem, I like it, dont know why but I do. Might as well end on that note.
It was many and many a year ago, In a kingdom by the sea, That a maiden there lived whom you may know By the name of Annabel Lee;And this maiden she lived with no other thought Than to love and be loved by me.I was a child and she was a child, In this kingdom by the sea:But we loved with a love that was more than love-- I and my Annabel Lee;With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven Coveted her and me.And this was the reason that, long ago, In this kingdom by the sea,A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling My beautiful Annabel Lee;So that her highborn kinsman came And bore her away from me,To shut her up in a sepulchre In this kingdom by the sea.The angels, not half so happy in heaven, Went envying her and me--Yes!--that was the reason (as all men know, In this kingdom by the sea)That the wind came out of the cloud by night, Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.But our love it was stronger by far than the love Of those who were older than we-- Of many far wiser than we--And neither the angels in heaven above, Nor the demons down under the sea,Can ever dissever my soul from the soul Of the beautiful Annabel Lee:For the moon never beams, without bringing me dreams Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;And the stars never rise, but I feel the bright eyes Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the sideOf my darling--my darling--my life and my bride, In her sepulchre there by the sea, In her tomb by the sounding sea.