just trying to find my way back homethe old me is dead and gone...dead and gone..
*LOVE that song*
Right now I am fighting the worst cold ever. It all started about 3 days ago at work when I had a kick ass day, did a great job with my call time and quality and everything and ended up coming into work on Thursday with NO voice. Fuck, go figure. I have a great day which hasn't been happening much since I changed new shifts and then I come back the next day with no voice. I could semi deal with the no voice thing but now it has turned into a full on head cold. I want to die. I can feel the intense pressure building behind both eyes, the burning in my nose and throat and the aching in my head. I know I have a fever right now where my nose and ears are both on fire, a sure red flag that I personally have a fever over 100 degrees. Oh well. Hopefully the fever is burning off whatever sort of bug I have seemed to catch. Speaking of work, things are different. I switched shifts with the realignment and the change was hard. I had to transition from a group that didnt like me at all but I got along great with my coach and senior representative to a team where I get along with a select few of my team so far (which is a HUGE happy point for me) but with a coach and senior that I don't really know. I think things will get better in the future but the past two weeks have been hard. I have had to adapt to how a different team does things and that is fine but then I have also ondered if me knowing people on my team has hindered me a bit. Oh well. I will work things out and I trust my old coach when he says to trust my new team and that things will fall into place properly and my last Thursday's performance rang true to me that I know I can do better and have successful days in the future. I need to be successful it really isn't an option at this moment.
Speaking of that I changed my major yesterday, full on public administration. Insane, I never thought that I would be going into public administration as a full major but I am. I might minor in something but I am not sure of what yet. Also, if my metrics at work get better and stay at what is needed then I can get tuiton reimbursement which is great. Free school is gold. I need to be successful in everything I do and I need to finish school but like my mom always said, I do things in my own time and I don't always follow the rules or guidelines but I will get it done.
Other than that wedding planning is going well. We have our ceremony and reception site, the dj, the cake baker, the caterer, the photographer, MY GOWN! and all the accessories (which I fall in love with more and more each time I see it), the decor for the reception, our personalized unity candle, personalized guest book, and we have our invitations all picked out. I know what I am getting for flowers, which I love and Rick actually likes them as well, and we have other things to finish up. It is crazy to think that this wedding is happening.. and in a matter of 8 months. Wild. I am very excited though.
Wow my nose burns so bad right now. I need to go rest... maybe watch a movie and stuff. I hope that I feel better come tomorrow. I need to feel better for work but at least my voice is starting to come back.