Saturday, March 20, 2010

Happy St. Pattys Day!.. Happy Birthday Hayden!

Sometimes you feel like you make the right decisions, but at the end of the day you look back and they simply werent right. They cant be changed, altered, removed from your memory or past but they happened. I think it is one of those hindsight is 20/20 thing but I keep on telling myself each event that has happened has taught me a lesson. Sometimes when its like 3am... I start thinking and I hate getting all philosophical.. but I think of feelings that relate to tangible things in my life.. and I can look around and see that my decisions have built this life I have around me and I am blessed and I cant regret where I am right now.

Becoming an aunt was the most amazing feeling ever. Holding Hayden Joseph Lockhart was the most natural high I have experienced in years I swear. I of course dont put it in the same category of marrying my high school sweetheart.. but damn, it was right up there. I want a child so ... so bad. Rick and I will be amazing parents, him and I both know it. We know it is more than picking out baby names and little things but we have talked about how we want to raise our children, what we want them involved in... things like that. I want to be a mother and right now just the thought of it makes me smile. Holding my new nephew made me smile ear to ear and I wouldnt have given it up for the world. I want to be the aunt that goes to tball games.. and is there for everything if I am allowed to be! I am not saying that we are actively trying because I personally have things I need to finish up and get stable before we try.. but I think that when the time is right we both will be ready.

On a complete sidenote... New Moon came out today and I watched it.. and loved it!

Alright.. I am going to work on a scrapbooking page, finish this movie.. and get some sleep.

***One Week***

~~~Feel the rain on your skin, no one else can feel it for you~~~

1 comment:

RaZella said...

That is a beautiful Picture of you and the little one. When you guys are ready, I think you will make beautiful babies and be wonderful loving parents.